Yay Fun Weekend!!

In the life of me the weekends aren't always so entertaining. Some people I know seem to think I have a very active social life, but I don't know where they get that idea. Anyways - this weekend was the lovely exception to the boring normality that usually greets me.

On Friday I got to have dinner with two friends I haven't seen since December in Vegas (hehe). It was a nice time and tasty food. Saturday afternoon I got to see my Philly Girl who was in the area for an interview (and she kicked enough ass that they offered her the job on the spot (dude - I wonder what that feels like - haha)) and she'll be moving back to California very soon!!! Woohoo!! And eventually she'll be bringing along Ed squared (I still don't know how to make the raised 2), and it will be a festival of happiness for all to enjoy!!!! Yay!!

As for Saturday night.....well, that was the party at my dear Lou-Dawg's newish pad. It was soooo much fun =-). To give you an idea of how much fun I had, the next afternoon me and my boy had gone to get some food when I realized my elbow hurt....I took a peek and saw I had a cut...."How'd that happen?" I wondered. "You fell." "I did?!" "Yes....several times." "Really?" "Yes." And then he preceded to tell me when. Hmmmmmm.... And when I got home I found a cut on my other elbow and a bruise on my leg. Battle wounds from a lovely time =-). Man I love Jaegermeister (with my favorite mixer too, of course!). And there were such groovy people there, some I knew and some who were new to me. It was so much fun =-). Although in the midst of my apparent falls I managed to run yet another set of fishnets (my 2nd pair this month to run =-(), but I had a blast, and the inhabitants seemed to like my housewarming sock puppets too. The Rumpus Room was as much a part of the party as the people and proved to be a fabulous location for good and groovy times. Yay fun party!!! Woohoo!!

STOP THE REJECTION!!!!!

Uuuuugggghhhh....dude, seriously =-(. I feel like I have weathered way too much rejection in this lifetime - at least in the last seven or so years. I guess a lot of people probably feel that way in different areas of their lives. And I know I can't really complain because so many people have such tremendous sadness and misfortune in their lives. But I finally got a rejection letter in the mail from a job that posted quite a while back....which, although things were starting to look grim, I just really didn't expect it to end this way. And this was an instance where, there was no doubt in my mind I would land an interview. I had so many things flying in my favor that I was super confident (which doesn't happen too often), and I didn't make it to that step. So, I'm at the point where I feel like I need to be pointed to the nearest cliff so I can stroll off. Or maybe I can join the circus. I can be the stupidly overeducated clown that gets mad at the kids and squirts them in the face with water and makes them deformed balloon animals as their mothers complain to the Ring Master about the Psycho-Pissed-Off-Clown-Chick....but oh wait, clown college is pretty competitive and they probably wouldn't want me.

Anyways, I tried to pop some of my "Happy Tabs" and they did pep me up for a bit. Yay - happy tabs =-). This weekend should be good though - I have some happy things on my social calendar, and promises of Jagermeister to come. And to be fair, I had a really nice Tuesday night this week, so not all is bad in the life of me.....I'm just not destined to have a "real job" that's worthwhile at this point in time. Bring on the clowns.

Working on it...

A friend pointed out that my last few blog entry's have been bummers, so, I apologize for that. To what, my three or so loyal readers ;-p? Anyways - I have since purchased some "Happy Tabs" - no, nothing of questionable legality.....just fun candy with the tag line "Happy Tabs - Because Life Sucks." And just looking at them makes me smile, so perhaps we are on our way to happier blog entry's from me.

Goodbye Bogey

My heart was broken tonight when I got the news that the most unbelievable dog on Earth, the amazing Bogey, didn't make it. His terminal cancer proved to be too much for his loving soul to handle, and my Aunt and Uncle had to say goodbye to our precious Bogey. The Vet who had been treating Bogey told them that he wished more Pitbulls were like Bogey because then the breed wouldn't have such a bad rap. I can't imagine going to visit without his happy, wagging frame greeting me at the door with his tail whipping about so enthusiastically that his whole body shaked. He was truly one in a million.

Where oh where has my sanity gone?

SANITY!!!!!!!!! WHERE IS MY SANITY!!!!!!! That's what I found the voices in my head screaming as I was at work today =-0!!!! Aaaaaahhhhh!!!! What a day!!! Those of you who know the type of job I have know what type of people I deal with - and there were lots of them - and they were small and crazy and PSYCHO!!!! OHMYLORD!!!! And....to make matters worse....I HAVE TO GO BACK TOMORROW! Oh my goodness!!!! Please, sanity gods, PLEASE - stand by my side tomorrow!!! I need you!

Reflections

As we enter into the second week of the new year, I'm finally going to take a moment to reflect back on 2005... an extremely eventful year in some ways and very uneventful in others. Considering how many things happened in the last year, it seems odd that I am starting the new year in the same place as I did 2005(albeit in front of a much larger computer screen that even my gaming brother thinks is a bit too big - hehe).

In 2005 I moved 800 miles away - and then came back again, I made and lost friends (and any that were lost, were not worth the energy of having in this case), I tried out a new type of employment - and subsequently (for the first time) quit a job without giving notice (screw you Mr. Loser Boss Man!!!!), I was in the weddings of two dear friends - one who had met the guy oh-so-recently, and one who had been with her guy for six freaking years, I had yet another loved one die too young and once again spoke at the funeral of someone who should have been around long enough to speak at mine, and even as all of these events swirled rapidly around me, I continued to feel as though my life was stagnant.

We battle through our lives and rack up our life experiences, and supposedly some things are supposed to make us stronger, but what if we don't want to be stronger in that way? Alas, we have no choice in the matter. And sometimes we strive for things we will never achieve or attain, and sometimes we attain things that we realize in retrospect didn't matter. Sometimes (often) I feel as though I am stuck and everyone is whizzing past me. I want to not be stuck.

I had high expectations for 2005 - the biggest of which was an expectation combined with hope and belief - and that one did not come to pass once again. So as I begin 2006 I can't help but have low expectations......optimism grows old as circumstances surrounding some of my hopes seem to whither, or rather, continue to do so. What is it like to be an optimist again? To see the sunny side of everything? I'm not sure if I was ever like that. Sometimes I wish I was a brighter person to be around.

And now 2006 has begun and I don't know if I have the heart to invest any hopes in this year. I just learned that my favorite, favorite, favorite dog, whose cancer we all thought was in remission, is now terminal, and will be lucky if he gets six more months, but that, evidently, is extremely optimistic. He lives several hours away from me, so I may not get to see him again.

So I have begun 2006 with sadness in my heart and the feeling of lead coursing through my veins. That doesn't mean it won't be a superb year I suppose....we're only nine days in. So 2006.....welcome - please be kind.

Happy New Year!

Happy 2006 everybody =-)!!! I don't have much to say right now, so I wish you all well during the coming year =-).