Life with and without employment.....
So I used to be semi-kidding when I said this, but now I really think it is completely true. I've realized that perhaps the point of my existence, at least when it comes to work, is to be the person who makes everyone else feel better about the jobs and careers they have. "Well this sucks, but at least it beats the crap out of what the Shababbler has going on!" Ho hum. I'm serious. It's gotten to the point where I even feel stupid telling people about things I am applying for because we all know NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN!!!!
Some of my friends have even told me over the years that they really thought things would have eventually fallen into place for me and that they were surprised so long had gone by with nothing coming up. I've recently had a couple people tell me that perhaps it is time to essentially give up on what I have been trying to pursue for so long. Maybe so =-(. But then it makes me wonder why in the hell I wasted all that time and money to rack up a couple of degrees that I owe out the wazoo for now. What was the point? They really do brain wash you in high school and make it seem like life is going to be so much better if you go to college. They show you those charts with how much more you can expect to make over the course of your life compared to people without degrees. But they never emphasize the point that this is just what happens for some people and it may never happen for you. And they don't have a side bar stating "Psssssst....Shababbler.....pssssssst....not only will you not ever get a "real" job, but you are also going to owe more money than you ever imagined possible for going to school and you will have to base all of your work decisions for the rest of your life on whether or not each job will allow you to pay off your student loans =-). Have a great day!"
So let me tell ya'll about my latest interview experience. I got called in and met with 2 people, followed by three more people for the 1st interview. It seemed to go pretty well, so I was excited to get a 2nd interview, scheduled with just one person....the Head Honcho. I got the vibe that Mr. Head Honcho wasn't really seeing me as the best option, but he was nice enough. Earlier today - one week after the interview with Mr. Head Honcho - I get a call from the human resources office asking me to call back. I was surprised, but excited because even though I didn't think I had landed the job, maybe I did, or maybe they were calling to schedule me for an interview for another position I had applied for. The message asked me to call back. I ran and grabbed my calendar so I could know what my availability was for any given day.
Any guesses as to what Ms. HR had to say? "Hello Shababbler =-). You interviewed for a position with us last week and that position was offered to another candidate who accepted it, but I just wanted to let you know that if you choose to apply for anything else we keep your application on file for 12 months, so all you need to do is call us up or e-mail =-)." She was super pleasant. Don't you just love it when they have a smile in their voice as they call you to say "As you know - you suck and we didn't want you, but if you choose to submit your pathetic hiney for a position with us in the future you can just save a tree." Lordy did that do wonders for my self-esteem.
However, I am not completely jobless. I have recently secured my "secondary" job. I was at a party on Friday and talking to some people I had just met, and at some point it came up I had just started something, I said it was my secondary job.
Random Person: "Oh, so what's your primary job?"
ME: "I don't have one yet."
Random Person (with confused look on face): "So you have a secondary job but not a
primary one?"
ME: "Ya."
Random Person: "Oh. Okay."
Aaaaaaah yes.....nothing like strangers realizing you are a loser to make you feel like you are having a stellar day =-).
So I figure I'll talk some about this secondary job since I don't think any of those people will ever get to know me well enough to ever be given a link or even my e-mail. I had wanted to do waitressing type stuff in the past as a secondary thing (never as a primary), just because my former job was so nomadic and lonely. However, I'm low on the experience in this field, so I went to a place that's open tons of hours and isn't exactly a high-faluting place ;-p. I already know I will have to quit in about 4 months because they make everyone work on certain days that I already know I won't be available for. Quitting is probably going to be very easy to do. Very easy. I'm not a waitress yet because I have to train, for now I am a hostess. It's really interesting seeing what a crappy job some of the other employees do and how they expect you to do things that are what they should be doing. If I was a mystery diner some of those kids would be screwed, but instead I am simply a lowly employee.
So I find myself frequently wondering what in the heck I'm doing (at the new secondary job too, but I meant life in general ;-p). I don't know if a "real" job is in my cards or if I somehow offended my job gods back in the day =-(. And I don't know if I made the right choice moving up here, even though I don't think it would have been the right choice to stay where I was either. And I think it sucks that the going joke about people with majors within the liberal arts having one question they usually have to ask in their jobs after college...."Would you like fry's with that?" And I'll probably be asking that soon =-(.
Some of my friends have even told me over the years that they really thought things would have eventually fallen into place for me and that they were surprised so long had gone by with nothing coming up. I've recently had a couple people tell me that perhaps it is time to essentially give up on what I have been trying to pursue for so long. Maybe so =-(. But then it makes me wonder why in the hell I wasted all that time and money to rack up a couple of degrees that I owe out the wazoo for now. What was the point? They really do brain wash you in high school and make it seem like life is going to be so much better if you go to college. They show you those charts with how much more you can expect to make over the course of your life compared to people without degrees. But they never emphasize the point that this is just what happens for some people and it may never happen for you. And they don't have a side bar stating "Psssssst....Shababbler.....pssssssst....not only will you not ever get a "real" job, but you are also going to owe more money than you ever imagined possible for going to school and you will have to base all of your work decisions for the rest of your life on whether or not each job will allow you to pay off your student loans =-). Have a great day!"
So let me tell ya'll about my latest interview experience. I got called in and met with 2 people, followed by three more people for the 1st interview. It seemed to go pretty well, so I was excited to get a 2nd interview, scheduled with just one person....the Head Honcho. I got the vibe that Mr. Head Honcho wasn't really seeing me as the best option, but he was nice enough. Earlier today - one week after the interview with Mr. Head Honcho - I get a call from the human resources office asking me to call back. I was surprised, but excited because even though I didn't think I had landed the job, maybe I did, or maybe they were calling to schedule me for an interview for another position I had applied for. The message asked me to call back. I ran and grabbed my calendar so I could know what my availability was for any given day.
Any guesses as to what Ms. HR had to say? "Hello Shababbler =-). You interviewed for a position with us last week and that position was offered to another candidate who accepted it, but I just wanted to let you know that if you choose to apply for anything else we keep your application on file for 12 months, so all you need to do is call us up or e-mail =-)." She was super pleasant. Don't you just love it when they have a smile in their voice as they call you to say "As you know - you suck and we didn't want you, but if you choose to submit your pathetic hiney for a position with us in the future you can just save a tree." Lordy did that do wonders for my self-esteem.
However, I am not completely jobless. I have recently secured my "secondary" job. I was at a party on Friday and talking to some people I had just met, and at some point it came up I had just started something, I said it was my secondary job.
Random Person: "Oh, so what's your primary job?"
ME: "I don't have one yet."
Random Person (with confused look on face): "So you have a secondary job but not a
primary one?"
ME: "Ya."
Random Person: "Oh. Okay."
Aaaaaaah yes.....nothing like strangers realizing you are a loser to make you feel like you are having a stellar day =-).
So I figure I'll talk some about this secondary job since I don't think any of those people will ever get to know me well enough to ever be given a link or even my e-mail. I had wanted to do waitressing type stuff in the past as a secondary thing (never as a primary), just because my former job was so nomadic and lonely. However, I'm low on the experience in this field, so I went to a place that's open tons of hours and isn't exactly a high-faluting place ;-p. I already know I will have to quit in about 4 months because they make everyone work on certain days that I already know I won't be available for. Quitting is probably going to be very easy to do. Very easy. I'm not a waitress yet because I have to train, for now I am a hostess. It's really interesting seeing what a crappy job some of the other employees do and how they expect you to do things that are what they should be doing. If I was a mystery diner some of those kids would be screwed, but instead I am simply a lowly employee.
So I find myself frequently wondering what in the heck I'm doing (at the new secondary job too, but I meant life in general ;-p). I don't know if a "real" job is in my cards or if I somehow offended my job gods back in the day =-(. And I don't know if I made the right choice moving up here, even though I don't think it would have been the right choice to stay where I was either. And I think it sucks that the going joke about people with majors within the liberal arts having one question they usually have to ask in their jobs after college...."Would you like fry's with that?" And I'll probably be asking that soon =-(.
posted by The Shababbler at 10:36 PM
1 Comments:
I read this and thought "wow I thought I was the only one who felt this way (about myself)"
"I've realized that perhaps the point of my existence, at least when it comes to work, is to be the person who makes everyone else feel better about the jobs and careers they have. "Well this sucks, but at least it beats the crap out of what the Shababbler has going on!"
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