Babble for today

So the return to California went fine....a lot of damn driving! It's been a bit of a whirlwind since I returned - with the holidays and the further traveling and functions that that entailed....which means I am still dealing with the chaos of unpacking myself into a room that was already full of the stuff I had left behind =-(.

This was the first year since 2000 that we celebrated Christmas on the 25th, having had our fair share of holiday tragedies and emergencies. It's hard not to approach this time of year with a sense of dread when you have the track record we do. Yet, even with another tragedy suffered a few months back, we still went ahead and did things on the 25th, and it was fine. But still, the holidays will never be the same.

And now I'm back to wondering what will become of my life....if it will finally become more of what I want it to be, or if I'm supposed to just keep swimming blindly in the dark water.

But first, it will be New Year's - time to welcome 2006 and hope it's a better year. I'm having a teeny tiny little shindig - so that should be fun =-). My brother gave me some fireworks on the 25th - so that should make it even better =-)! I'm already thinking of resolutions I probably won't come close to keeping. If I don't write again before that point - Happy New Year's everyone =-)!!